Inside the Mind of a Psychopathic Killer

George Sodini

Age 48.

DOB 9/30/1960

DOD 8/4/2009

5-10, 155 lbs.

Never married.

Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania USA

That's how George Sodini had defined himself in his diary, his creepy online log, which he kept to document the build-up of the dark thought process that had lead him to storm into a room full of women practicing Aerobics and to shoot at them indiscriminatly. He ended up killing 3 (or 4, depends on what source you read) and injuring 10 women, before killing himself.

George was not poor. His net worth, according to the diary, is 250 $ K. He had a college degree and a decent job; a programmer in a law firm. He'd survived two waves of lay-offs in his firm and managed to get a raise and a promotion!

George's problem? well, according to him, it was women. They never liked him, he'd not got laid in 19 years (since he was 29 YO). He wrote:

Women just don't like me. There are 30 million desirable women in the US (my estimate) and I cannot find one.

It's not only women who hated on George. According to him, his family hadn't been kind to him either; his father was a bully, his brother was a bully, his mother was bossy and dominant. He blamed his brother for his shortcomings with girls, yet he looked down upon all the girls his brother had been with, he wrote:

On the same thought, things occured to me today. Michael NEVER had an attractive girlfriend. Debbie, Barb, Kim, ... then I lost track. Not to say I had any (execpt Pam, who was about a 7.25). He married a Chinese-descent, petite woman with no body, no ass, no chest and no personality. She never laughs or smiles, neither does he. But she is highly intelligent and an excellent cook. I can testify to that! She home bakes her own DELICIOUS wheat bread! But who cares about that type of small bull crap? Mike even mentioned when we were visiting dad that "she's not very attractive".

Now you might be wondering why am I wading through this sick, misogynistic, racist, criminal, mind-wrenching sewer of excremental thoughts of an obvious psychopath who lived his life under the radar of law enforcement (he had a clean record). Well, it’s because of one disturbing pattern whenever an event of this magnitude happens anywhere in the world. People will be quick to snap to judgments and issue collective verdicts even before the detectives had lift prints off the crime scene. The non-religious will blame it on religion. The religious will blame it on apostasy. The married will blame it on single-hood. People of other religions will blame it on the said person’s religion. Some might blame it on his upbringing. I also guarantee that some misogynistic asshole will come along and blame it on women. Societies are quite efficient in issuing judgments.

Missing from the discourse, though, is George’s own screwed outlook on life. Let me elaborate: notice, for instance, how he made an estimate of 30 million desirable women in the US. The US has a population of 280-300 millions. So out of 150 million women, only fifth are desirable , according to him.

So what about the rest? I think at one point in time a mature man would have outgrown his fantasized molds of beauty queens and fairies and get down to accepting realities and really seeing women for what they are. To be honest with you, objectifying the female body had always disturbed me. But I never thought it lead to such ugly destinations. Don’t get me wrong; we are all (well, almost all) infatuated by a voluptuous, full-breasted goddess, especially when they come supplemented by useful sack techniques. But let’s get real, not all women are sculpted to our tastes. Equally speaking, not all men are Brad Pitts (........ we’re way smarter).

You could easily detect this cognitive dissonance by examining George’s impression of his sister in law, quoted from above:

He married a Chinese-descent, petite woman with no body, no ass, no chest and no personality. She never laughs or smiles, neither does he. But she is highly intelligent and an excellent cook. I can testify to that! She home bakes her own DELICIOUS wheat bread!

See what I’m saying? Woman is either the type you wank off at in your head or she’s “no body, no ass, no personality [..etc.].” So what about those with non of the above mentioned qualities? are they incapable or love too?

At the end, you gotta love it when people blame George’s madness on loneliness. Get over it, I say. There are many, many life-long singles in this world. Even more who had been brought up by abusive families. Not all of these belonging to either denominations turn out to be disgruntled criminals.

I bet if George’d ever got around to getting married he’d abuse his wife and end up disfiguring her. He didn't, so he ended up lashing out at the opposite gender in some other way.